| | So I've decided something. I want to be a person of peace.
Throughout my shortly lived life on this earth, I have come in contact with a great deal many people. I have lived with many of them, grown close to many of them, and learned from most of them.
I realized something when I was young. I realized that I could be anyone I wanted to be, I just had to do it. Growing up I was the load, obnoxious know-it-all who made a racket in class. I was mean to other children at day-care and my curiosity got me in more trouble than I'd like to admit.
When I moved from Goodland, Kansas to Colby at the age of 9, I decided to become a different person. No one knew who I was at this new school I was going to, and no one expected anything from me. I could become anyone I wanted to be. I chose to become Tess.
Tess was a girl in my 3rd grade class that I never heard speak. She didn't come across as over confident, or disconnected, but simply silent. I don't know why I admired her so much, but I did, and I wanted to be just like her.
When I moved to Cobly I stopped speaking at school. I stopped being the talkative know-it-all, and rather became the painfully shy child who couldn't bear to speak to strangers.
Had I known then what I know now, I might have chose a different person to become. However I think the principle is true. We can be anyone we want to be. We have the ability to adapt, and if we pursue it, the chance to become anything we want to be.
In coming back to my original thought, I want to be a person of peace. Not only do I want to possess peace, but I want to be the type of person who brings peace into others lives.
When I think about who Jesus is, and how people must have felt around Him, I get the overwhelming feeling that being in His presence, in all of it's joy and marvel, was peaceful. I don't get the feeling He yelled at His disciples or throw careless words of anger or frustration around. However, I get the image that He was encouraging, even if at times blunt. He is the kind of person who can call you aside, and rebuke you for your wrong, and afterwards you want to hug Him because even in rebuke, He demonstrates kindness.
I want to be like Jesus.
So many of the people in my life display Jesus in so many different ways. Some give like He gave. Some are kind, like He is kind. Some have wisdom that can only have been given by Him. And some bring peace. Some make the whirling wind around me feel like a gentle breeze. Some I want to be close too simply because they are quiet and still.
The last few days I have not felt at peace. I have felt stressed, and irritable. I have felt angry and envious. I have had a really bad attitude about certain things, people and places. I decided I don't want to be like that. I want peace. I want His peace. |
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